it has always been you, my brother.
like the saying goes...
never make someone a priority when they only make you an option.
therefore, im afraid. of losing you
yesterday was kinda a bad day. really. my head hurts. sch was 8-12. but it ended ard 9.30am. dont ask why. lazy to elaborate. so i didnt feel well and didnt even manage to finish up my plate of mee and yeah, i vomit. it was horrible. sakit2 still went to work which i regretted. went to play pool at night and im so happy cause i won but itu pon main tipu. reached home late ard 10+ ystd, and noone was home. so i watched ANTM while smsing Matin abt syidah. im so confused la pasal dorng dua nie kan.. haizzzz.!!! dorng nye hubungan, aku yg pening.
conclusion: i love yesterday. I LOVE YESTERDAY DAMMIT!!(xcluding vomitting)
today.. hmm.. nuthing much happened. today's the last day i can collect my prize from mediacorp and yeah, abang sent me. nice abang. my 1st bro. he sent me and then i teman him go bendemeer cos he cuztomise his seat and yeah, i helped him choose the colour and its nice la siol. i gave him ideas and he followed. see, great mind think alike. otw and nak balek, ader accident. abg forced me to rmmbr the plate num cos he wanna buy TOTO. fuck. and so he did lah.. den yah, dats bout it. and faiz was being soooooooooooooooooooo nice to help me do my project at sch library. cause that fucking person peh lambat kan.. smpai MLC (sum computer room at sch) pn dah tutop. ok actuali MLC nari mmg tutop. HAhaz. so at library, me and anonymous masuk frenster each other and anonymous mengumpat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha. cikopek smue klua. lepak pe. ok den.. dats bout it ah!! k chao! i gotta get well soon!!
BESOK IS "THE QUEST" thingy!!!! xcited at the same time tired
Said there'd be no going back
Promised myself I'd never be that sad
Maybe that's why you've come along
To show me, it's not always bad
Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
It's true I've become a skeptic
How many couples really love
Just wish I had a crystal ball
To show me, if it's worth it all
Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
And I've got to be sure
Coz it's been so long
And I cannot take the pain again
If it all goes wrong
Coz I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to, let go
I'm scared coz my heart has been hurt so
I want you so much
I need you so much
I want you so much
I need you so much
[believe me my love
believe me my love]
i love this song by jem, falling for you. yeah.. its more den just a song. today i didnt go to sch. so lethargic. i wanna faint. and yeah. guess what. i only had a slice of pizza for today's meal. cause i didnt have any appetite since last few days. ystd when i bought ol chunkie, i oni ate 1 over 100 of the epok-epok. i dunoe. am i suffering from anything? hope not. after went to poly, i went to work. and yeah. had to accompany chris to attend some meeting at a company. ergg. its so tiring. im now missing ____. so much. i hope u feeling the same too. <3
[b]matin[/b] says:
babi is okay?
[b]matin[/b] says:
how would u feel if i call u babi
[b]matin[/b] says:
?
[b]matin[/b] says:
not only pengotor
[b]matin[/b] says:
but tk halal
[b]matin[/b] says:
memalukan
syidah if u reading this, let me tell you, your bf has a good sense of humour. hahaha. sial lah..
Im high on "drugs" thnks to alibhai. yeah. ehhee. aini said its a disease. contagious disease. oh well. today was pretty alright. the problem with me today is just that i shivered too hard and my body's not giving me any good signs. hais. i enjoyed my day today. i hope theres another day like today. May god bless me.
THE DAY U LAID UR HANDS ON MY FACE WAS THE MOMENT I MADE A PROMISE TO HATE YOU FOREVER.. TRUST ME. THERE'LL BE NO TURNING BACK.. & IM NOT REGRETTING IT EITHER.
I'll be praying every step along the way
& the thought of you leaving my life, broke me down in tears. i took granted of all the love you gave to me.
im deleting every memories of u, pic and post abt u, one by one. i hope im strong to face this battle. Insyaallah. Amin.
im so bored right now. Falique ajak lepak. Ali imran pun. might be meeting ali later petang kalau tak hujan since dh lame tk catch up ngn dier.. k then. tmr update again! chao!
Maybe this decision was a mistake right from the start. Met ____. everything was fine til we went to cyber cafe and ____ flared up. from there, things got out of hand. i started making scenes in public and i admit, that ___ had to go along with the flow. Padan muker dier kene byr 16 bux for ERP cause cashcard tkde value. ader duit tak? LOL. hmpff. we argued big at siti's block there, and i threw _____'s things from his bag. just cause i wanted to take MY STUFF. (jgn tktau malu k its yours). perhaps mum was right. i got too many lucifers in my body. but wth right. so then _____ slapped me twice on my face. thats so W.O.W. i got slapped. Twice. Hard. On my cheek. but i dun care. ____'s being suchan ass by calling my parents. fine.. but i didnt know.. why when my parents and me we abt to go from the place, my heart was shattered to see ____ sitting down beside his bike and was fixing his helmet cause i kicked it and im truely sori for that. suddenly my heart was like, filled with pitifulness. i was crying. i swear to god that when my dad u-turned to sent me home, i was crying harder cause i was feeling remorseful. til now. but i hope things will be okay now. everything hass ended. AMIN. take care, ____. Sory for what ive said and done. After the lecture from my parents, i sat and think. Cause my mum told me to. and i did. i only cried harder. since im alone at home now, i might as well cry my heart out. After much crying and argueing, im feeling hungry. hehh. I regretted much what i did and said to ____. what i said to ___ everything was so untrue. Maybe yes i do look like an asshole bitch/prostitute/whore/slut (cause thats what ___ always label me as), going out with other guys, my heart will always be with him. cause i know by the end of the day, its him i run to for a shoulder to cry on. Perhaps im not good at expressing my feelings?? i suppose so. OK then. Im super hungry.
TIME CHECK:
10.15pm.
ok im going out now to.. somewhere and also buy some food for myself to eat. Take care and you people have a nice weekend. (cause mine is spoilt)
=]. Love you siti fatimah for being there for me and advicing me to eat choco, cause im feeling better now.
my gals made me feel better after ystd's mishap. sch was alright today but just a lil restless. fik msged me while im in class. ok no. we were just sambung our sms where we stopped ystd. bla3 and then wanted to go work but my body cant take it. im too tired already. so i decided to go home then. so many things happen recently but u think i gv a damn? hell noooooo .if u think i do, ur wrong. took 31 to interc with aini shefah and daya. i was walking at interc with em and say some kinda familiar face uh. i smiled at that guy ar.. (altho i wasnt sure if dats the prsn i noe. cause he was looking at me too! we had eye contact. LOL). and he smiled back. and yea, he panggil me and my girls. betul lah tu dier. its THAQIF. our secondary sch mate. he left our sch when he's in sec 2 cause he shifted house and now he's in ITE tamp. abeh kan, dier suro kiter amek number dier. and sms dier num kiter. eleh. no way man. aini and shefah took. but as for me, i didnt. he was asking for my num and aini told him, that i will never giv away my number. ahaha.. ok lah since he's my sec sch mate right, i gave and he smsed me. sms stakat suro save num dier. haha. he rmmbred my name!!! but aini's and shefah's name, he didnt. he said aini's FARHANA and shefah's HAJAR. mampus. itu smue org lain seh.. hahahazzz. ok practically im so happy today. AND NOT FORGETTING, I board the same bus with din to sch. hahaha!!! ok ok. im so xcited for THE QUEST this 31st may. cause i noe whats in for the giftpack. i went to the nebo webby. smangat ehk. hahahh. fik is working as the marshall i guess. wellll.... i so cant wait ay.
bro's class 2 bike tayar pancet so terpakse naik moto yg tak seberapa nie.
3rd may:
kt cgh, i was walking den this mamat stopped me.
mamat: dh kul brape?
me: 10.25 ah
mamat: oh nie namer siape?
me: radhyah.
mamat: oh da kawin eh?
me: uh? tk ah
mamat: skola mane?
me: ite simei
mamat: eh samer ah. leh jadi adek angkat?
siol aku tk knal kau nak aku jadi adek angkat kepe. tk angkat siol aku!
me: ughhh. eh dh lambat ah nak g jumpe matair nie.
mamat: jap eh. i amek pen.
me: ah
mamat: ape hp num?
me: err.
i gave him my mom's 2nd line. omg. despo.
it has always been you, my brother.
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