Alhamdulillah, finally today i got to meet Fikri after 1 mth+ of not meeting him. I miss him. but i dont know how to express it?? i was alone at work tdy cause farah n asmah kene go court so yeah, took half day. 4pm dah chao. met fik, he fetch me. Everything was so-so. Noone noes how much i love fikri.
chalet, was okay. reached late cause i work mah. den, tok to fik on the fone and gado (whats new) and yah, went off from chalet ard 1+ den went to pasir ris central with the 4 people at kedai kopi lepak til 3am+. it was super draining for me and i reached home ard 4.15am and cant get up to work sey. well. ok. dats all. I love ya fikri.
Hi babes.
dyla: yes dyla im meeting u guys tmr. dah plan kan. im not going for the doa slamat thingy.!
din: Yes whore. meet ya tmr.! =p
so yeap. tmr im sooooooooooo busyyyy!!! meeting 2 guys in the morning, 2nd grp in the afternoon for lunch perhaps, and the 3rd grp for sheesha in the evening. and fuck it. baru nak amek off, skali chris suro me dtg cos ader customer nak buat bende and he put me in charge. so i'll b cuming for half day morning til afternoon.
Called singtel to enquire about continue-ing my line but just wanna change the hp num, i gotta pay 30 bux. and change of ownership, another 20 bux. yeap yeap. gonna do just that this week or latest by nx week. so people, i'll inform ya ma new num yeah..
gonna get myself mango's hot pants for 35 bux. i like the material. cooling. yeap so, besok mcm gerek gitu. mcm looking forward to go out with my diff grp of frens. im so tired. after werk, was supposingly to fetch babygirl from work with matin. so i met matin at expo, and we wanted to proceed to PS when babygirl called and said, takya amek?? mrajok eh?? sorry lah. so i went to tamp with matin and yeap, balek ah pastu. dah ngntok giler..
im so shag now. tadi i jalan2 sorang. imagine ah.. g bedok sorang2.. pastu g simei sorang2... hoping to see fikri sumwhere ard simei ke eh.. =p. ok fat hope.
k la. im so gonna sleep early tdy. chao people!
ok SHOOTS. i just heard from my mum that this wed i gotta go my kak sdare's doa slamat fer her new hse ard aft maghrib. bloody shit.! baru plan ngn dorng2 wednesday nak p sheesha sial.. arr. okok im not going to my kak sdare's doa slamat uh. takpe. itu tk penting. frens more penting. =p.
like iqah said.. "kau dulu slalu ngn fik je. sikit ngn fik. smpai pulau kan kiter". yeap i admit that ah.. so foolish of me. so i think its time i shud spent time with them pulak.. if this wed jadi gi sheesha, it'll be my 2nd time. my 1st time wasnt with people that i know of!! with strangers. it was last week. cos practically they are my fren's frenz. and im so stupid to swollow the asap. but for the rest of the puffs, i managed to kluakan thru my mouth. yeap. okok. so, today at work was tiring. Chris told me this. "radhyah, u make a good secretary". hahaha. I WISH!
& YES PEOPLE. PLS TAKE NOTE I WONT BE USING MY CURRENT HP NUM ANIMORE, SOON. CHANGING TO A NEW NUM IN A FEW DAYS TIME. i'll update ya guys whats ma new num personally.
Probably what gfs said bout letting go and move on is a must for me right now. The thought of Fikri is holding me back. Yap i still love him but yeah.. Its ego.. he msg me each week. altho he msg me full of maki2, i noe deep down he care for me. yes i do too. but takpe. both ego. both tanak cari each other. so y even bother and look back when i noe things wont be the same animore??? yeap im moving on so not to worry.! =p. Some people are so, prasaan eh.. ntah asal eh.. haiya.. abeh smarang2 jerrr attack org sia.. so tkde keje lain.. ok wtf ah nie org smue tak perlu sia dalam idop aku. And so, i cant wait to meet my 2 grp of frens this wed. ptg ngn the 1st grp, evening til late night with the other grp. But im looking forward to klua with the evening grp. HAh. okokokok. wtf here.
I love you all my friends!
& to the 3 guys, IM so sorry. its not time for me to accept any of your love right now. as U ALL noe, i still have feelings for fikri. and AS U ALL noe too, if fikri were to ask to be with me again, i'll say YES. but AND AS U ALL NOE, that will never happen. he will never ask tt. but whatever it is, Im sorry but to decline u all nye love for now. You guys noe who u 3 are.
Tak perlu kau ucap "baby i love you so". Cause You lost that place in my heart.
today, was a working day for me. yeap. and it was raining heavily right? so dad sent me to work. he sent me, bro and mum to our destination. he sent me last. so yeah, its so fucking random for my dad to actuali talk abt me and fikri. whats there to talk about actually???? its over right??? haiz. i just got to know that Fikri msged my dad. and my dad said.
"papa tk reply. y shud i? i dont like when other people slap my girl"
yes dad. i love u. muacks. hahaha.
so at work today was draining. like really. hais. too many things in my mind right now. okok.
met Matin after work. was suppossed to go sheesha but apparently kan, some people kan, tukar plan.. so yeah.. just met matin at sing post and we ate at kfc. we saw diff kinds of people there. yang bau chilli lain, yang tgh diri abeh tibe2 jatuh lain, yang takde duit abeh makan kfc abeh minta air plain 4 cups abeh kentut lain.. hahaha. mepek sey.. and i dont know why, and how come the topic bout CINER MAMPOS came abt, but matin was wondering why chinese can still eat good food and can play mahjong when people die. hahaha. so he said, abeh melayu main congkak ar. CINER main mahjong, MLAYU main congkak. i was laughing. dats pretty kental.and also kan!!!
hahaha. someone doesnt know whats TAGBOARD is.
i was like,
Me: ___ tagged at my blog stupd stuff uh.
ANONYMOUS: whats a tagboard?
Me: smth people say to u or abt u at ur blog
ANONYMOUS: oh, TAgboard tu kat which side of u block?
me: huh??
ANONYMOUS: kat lift eh?
me: LAUGHING... no. its BLOG. not BLOCK
kau kental sia tu org. hahahahahha. u noe i noe uh. hmmm. =p
practically the day spent with matin was filled with laughters and yeah, i stepped on shit. ok shut up. im duing my project now.. and it sucks. arg.
and yeap, fikri msged me tadi. cant be bothered to reply. haiz. naik malas aku!!!! ok lah.. babe, if u reading this, i cant afford to lose u. but at the same time, i cant afford to lose "dier" too. =(
god dammit.
pout
Was waiting for shaf so, why not we snap? haha. BITCH!
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yes, pout it
POUT!!!!!!!!
this is Shaf. SHAFIEE ; the one who keeps asking me to eat papers and stop complaining.
Lets shorten this post. Went sch early to Accompany Mamat. den met Shaf after sch. Lepak. and yeah. Had my CRN test. Which insyaallah i can pass. Ok bye.
oh yes. while lepak with shaf, dayah and shefah send me a chained sms abt mcm.. if u send this to 6 of ur frens u will bla3 uh. a forward sms. showed shaf tt msg and we kinda laugh. haiya. pls people. stop sending me those kinda sms. i'll ignore. seriously. waste sms aku jek
someone smsed me this and i think its sweet.
"i dont know bout others bt for me i look for inner beauty.. n radhyah.. u r already pretty on ur own and u dun need fashion to make u more prettier"
i wanna cry.! i love ya, to the prsn who send me this. u're sucha sweetheart. ok shutup fuck
been tagged from fred. Ugh
01. At which age do you want to get married.
-25
02. Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriends/boyfriends?
-Errr. Friends like duh
03.Who is/are the person/people you trust most?
-NURAINI, SITI EMMA, SYIDAH
04.Do you think you have enough confidence?
- pretty much
05.What would you do if someone abusing an innocent animal?
-Call SPCA. Let the person get caught
06.Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
-No. LAme
07.What is your goal for this year?
-Get out of the freaking sch asap.!
08.Do you believe in Luck?
-Yeaps..
09.Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
-er. God knows.
10.What feeling do you love the most?
-The feeling of in the process of shitting. seriously uh.
11.If one day your bestfriend and boyfriend quarrel, who will you side with?
- Boyfriend. haha.
12.List out 5 of your bestfriends.
-Fred (has been i love u bitch), nuraini, siti, syidah anddddd... hidayahahahahaha! =p
13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-Not every.
14.Do you like to hangout with friends?
-Not really. i'd rather spent time with my bf (if i have one. seriously!)
15.What/who do you think is/are the most important in your life?
-FAMILIA.
16.If you were on a ship, your mother and your boyfriend/girlfriend(been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?
-MOm! idiotsss
17.If your girlfriend/boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?
-Be it ah.. lets play along
18.If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
-when i was single and leading a happy life, like now!!
19.Have you ever felt the true meaning of love?
-To a certain xtend, yes.
20. Who do I wish to see right now?
-honestly its fikri (ok aku mintak kene sepak jugak uh skg ngn sesiaper. wake me up and i shud stop missing him!!)
Remove one question from the above and add in your personal question. make a total of 20 questions and tag 7 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them at their tagboard that they've been tagged.
-aini
-daya
-aida
-shafiee
-joanne
-lyn
-??? (who else sia??haha!)
honestly this is a stupiddddddddddd questionaire.
I'm not hesitating,I just don't wanna rushYou can be anywhere you wanna be,But you decided to be here wit me.No coincidence, it was meant to beIm so afraid to say love. Im traumatized. I SWEAR I AM
wednesday, i played pool with A and as always, i lost! 2-1. ok fuck. den we ate at the downtown's tmpt makan and yeah, kinda didnt have the appetite. and b4 that in the mning, had my BRANCH at LJS with A, H, S, M, I, and another one i dont know the name. hehh. okay den, as always too, i vomit. A's always been there uh. but dier make fun by saying "eh berat pe cup nie" (cause i vomit in the cup). hahaha.ok crap.
thursday, wanted to watch congkak with A but mcm tanak gitu so we decided to play pool again. im addicted to pool ah now altho im sick and tired of losing all the time. but since ramai org, me and A went sumwhere else. something happened and im kinda traumatized by it. serious shit nye nie. Only my gfs tau uh what happened. dorng sendiri shocked. OK shuddup gals . dun u dare tag what happened ok, at my tagbrd!!
friday (today). sch starts at 10 and ends at 11.15. ok thats utterly crap. ate lunch with A, S, H and M. den M teman-ed go mrt cos i wanted to go work. so then, at work, Joe called me. kacau jek! dier nye fren nak kenal2 with me. yeah he said uh the other day kwn die nak knal2. haiya. talked to his fren for a short while cos his fren said his fren saw me. ah smarang jek. K den.. met M aft work and we went buy stuffs for myself as well as my homestuff cause my mum kirim stuff uh. kinda had misunderstanding with A but everythings alright. OK then.
im going off now. gotta study for CRN test and gotta burn the midnite oil cos i have yet to do my RESUME!! shit.
today's OFC test was ok. i screwed it up. i fogot the lines. hais. well whatever. i finally managed to snap a foto of me and ___. hahakz. finally! so, we went to eastpt to eat kfc cos ___ was there too eating with frens. so kiter kecoh, as always. and after eating cheese fries, i vomitted (whats new?). rabak nye. ___ tgk aku muntah also dier wanna muntah. and smpai the sink choke (however its spelled) siak. eee. geli.. den pt meja makan also i vomit. dorng smue help me. i muntah at plastic. haiz. just whats wrong with me? dorng ckp im lacking in vitamin in my body. probably?? thnks to ____, ____ and ____ for sending me home. I owe u 3. thnks and sorry for being sucha troublesome gal =(.
time check. 1.17pm.
i have sch til 5pm. but i called my teachers and told em alrd.
im sleeping now. bye people =(
i wanna get well soon.
2nd post for the. today is so boring. sorry for not joining u guys today to celeb nad's bdae. we'll go sheesha okay soon. nx week. i love ya'll. probably it'll be my treat? i hope if i got the money.
i'll be going to night safari soon. perhaps soon. yeah. . xcited kepe aku.. cnfrm kecoh. binatang tgk kiter terus tido kot? hahaha. mum's like duing my esprit watch. she's xtending the metal parts cos she own that watch now. yup yup i gave it to her that watch. so she besarkan cos her wrist fat! hahaha. so i'll be using a diff watch now.well, sometimes u have to learn to let go. right? =). my babe's studying so i shall not disturb and let my babe concentrate. its been a tough week for myself as well as babe. I love you babe. i honestly do. MUacks. HAHAHA.
Life's great. Life's too short to look back. ive seen it all. feel it all. eat my dust kay. ive been vomitting these past few days and it really concerns me. my babe said that maybe im pregnant? pala hotak kau! i came my menses alrd kay which ended less den a week ago. and furthermore, i dont do stuffs =p. tmr's my roleplay and im sure to do well for it. insyaallah. was chatting with MAS and yeah, told her everything bout what happened in my life and all. we chatted abt fiq too. as in SHAFIQ. haiya. are guys so unpredictable? i guess so.
plan nak g pulau ubin. I hope jadi eh.. kiter g ngn diff2 elements. rocker, minah, mat, rilek. HAHAHA. sial lah.. i hope its a fun outing. OKay lah. im off. too tired.
RMMBR PEOPLE, NEVER LOOK BACK CAUSE IF U DO, U'RE IN FOR JEALOUSLY, JUST LIKE I DID. its a big mistake.
Three Reasons to Leave Your Lover
05/30/08 9:35 AM
filed under: Love
Love yourself and leave HIM the minute these three deal breakers come into play.
#1 Leave him when he is abusive, physically or verbally!
#2 Leave when he is controlling. Never forget that you are your own woman.
#3 Leave him when you have evidence that he is cheating. But be careful, ladies, suspicion won't cut it and no snooping allowed!.
got this from tyrashow.com
Anw Fikri, if u reading this, i just want you to know that.. should i even accept ur request of adding me to your msn contacts? i dun think i shuld, right?? i mean, lets face it. i wanted to talk things out, yea, but u seem so desperate. It freaks the hell out of me. Life's great so far. Why do you have to come back? Now, the request is still pending. i'll leave it as it is, until you give me 3 good reason why i should add u to my msn. And yeah, y now den u add me at ur msn? Oh dah tkde pmpan lagi nak add so im ur last resort? chet. whatever. JUst tag at my Tagboard the 3 reasons. BYe fikriThe quest was fun in a way that me and gfs we lost til tekka??!!! wtf??? hahahaha. ok la. i had fun afterall. i was suppose to meet "A" but i cancelled it cause it was a last minute plan that "B's meeting me. so sorryyyyyyyyyy!!! I cant help but keep having last min changes ah. hahahaaa. so yeah.. "C" keeps calling me and i swear i got annoyed cause he wants to meet me? i noe lah its SATURDAY and its suppose to be our day but hey, i thought we broke up?? and i thought i made it clear?? are u meeting me to use me?? to use me for smtg u ache for??? sorry. im not a bitch. i have my rules. ok forget abt that person there. then i met "B". went to escape theme park and we practically spent the whole day there!! for like, 5 hours i suppose?? ard 1hr in escape, "D" and "E" came so the four of us were together. it was so hilarious. "D" actuali made me, "B" and "E" laughed so badd... hehhehhh. dier takot of heights. i vomitted again, and luckily "E" was there. i dunt know just whats wrong with me.so yeah.. and the pirate thingy. we sat and we got 2 free rides cause it was an incomplete ride as theres this fam stop twice. babi. den this couple in front of us quite kecoh and yeah, smue ktawe lor tgk muke "D". hehhh. den we go makan at MCdonalds and i lepak fer a while and reached home at 10+pm. whoa. i went out of the hse at 7+am ystd and came back 10+. more den 12 hrs klua. kay lah.. today im gonna rest. till here then. cHao.
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