Tuesday, April 29, 2008




it was sooooooo hard to wake up this morning. oh shits. time table dah rabak. tues wed and thurs start at 8am! walauey. and what made it worst is, tmr im having swimming lessons. CRAP.. well, nothing much happened today in school. and i didnt eat for lunch. not so hungry. but aini's nasi ayam thousand island nice.




and siti babe, its okay for what happened ystd. i totally understand what ya going thru. anw kan, from now i can go werk thurs, fri and sat! cos thurs and fri i nye sch smpai 12 je. i noe its nice to see me and fik's pic together being happy . ya im happy tooooooooooooooo actualy. meet up soon babe.! i miss you as much as working with you too!

Sunday, April 27, 2008


my little boy.

singapore's red-light district






the fuck cum pig's pose was specially for aini cos she said fik buncit. ah amek kau aini. LOL















fierce or what..




swear to god today and yesterday was so tiring for both me and my babe. he's bike broke down ystd and after 1hr +++ of trying hard, we still cudnt manage to fix it. and it was 9+ almost 10. omg or what. so we took cab to my place and eat nasi ayam cos my mom invited him over as she cooked quite alot. it was more tiring for fikri cause he met he's fren and tried to do his bike til 4+am and met me at 1pm today. he didnt have enough rest.










so what happened today was...


1pm: met fikri and proceed to he's KR bike. cause we went out using fitri cum fikri's DRZ bike. so den stil cudnt start so we started searching for a nearby motocycle shop. and managed to find one. GOOD AND CHEAP. so fikri had to push his bike from the location to the bike shop with kinda took him 20 mins just to push from there to the bike shop. bla3 den all the shit ended at 4.

4pm: went to office and took my thumbdrive that i left behind. as simple as that.
4.15pm: proceed to far east and slack for 10 mins and went town and rounding. 2 rounds summore. and fikri asshole he go and do the pop sound at cntr of orchard road. loud seh. i laughed. and its obvious its us. people noe.
6pm: mountbatten's kfc and ate. was so fullllllll!!!

7pm: went back to fikri's plc and return fitri the bike key and we both took cab to changi's bus stop. and took bus number 2 to the bike KR shop where he got it repaired. kinda funny tho in the bus we laughed so badly

. haha

9pm: reached the bike shop and proceeded home and yeah, he naik my hse and slack til 10. dats abt it!


Friday, April 25, 2008

eh see that bitch behind duing what.! haha.=p back to square one, a skul gal.

APE JE MY MOM! WTF! SHE ASK WHT TIME I FINISH SCH TDY AND I SAID 10.30 AND SHE SAID ASL SIANG N I SAY AH CIKGU TK DTG AND SHE SAY "SUKER2 JE BALEK" EH SHE STUPID OR WHAT!!!!!!!!!!! MMG BOLEH BALEK PE CIKGU TK DTG. eEH SIAK AH. SOMEONE TALK SENSE TO HER!!!! ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today is so exhausting! i think it was a waste of time cuming to school today. OFC lesson is cancelled again sey. my BPF lesson was supposed to be 2 hrs but cikgu cumer aja 1 n a half hr je. so like what, attend skul at 9 and 10.30 go home. merepek or what.. so i was late meeting my gfs (as usual) and went to sch. talking abt some craps. and in class. BPF was sooooooooooooooo boring!! me and aini (my bitch partner) vandalised the table due to boredom. i dunoe why she keeps picking on me? ok well. i keep picking on her. LOL. she copied my work! pemalas. and yeah, BPF is smth like maths so i did it fast and accurate. maklum budak pandai maths tapi o level fail. haha!okokok. wanted to eat at the cafe after sch since we finish early but the BITCH tanak!! so sengket !! haha. sorie gal. den we walked to the bus stop. me, bitch and shefah. thus, in the bus, this bitch nak makan FC . kanina. kat skola tanak makan siak. well, dey followed me top up ma ezlink den i went home alone. yeah. dorng teman smpai railing 72. den dh balek smue, i siap2 go work. ugh tiring gilerrrrrr. dlm bus 8 i slept sia.. 1st time i m so tired. and bus pulak sejuk.! went werk sorng den balek also sorng. at werk mcm nak nanges. so stressed up! kene buat JLL la ADM la argg.







Thursday, April 24, 2008



my bro and lil sis.







today i was really hoping to meet someone after school but least i xpected that it'd turn out as a dissappointment. but its okay.. sch sucks. ugh.

9-10pm.: had my customer relations (CRN) class. and yeah, bored as always. i sat at the back with aini and all, but me and aini keep talking and talking and talking. and i was smsing that someone too. he was using his fren's fone tho. so cudnt sms much and he wasnt intrested in smsing me! like mother fucking hell.

10-12pm: supposing i have my OFC lesson but its cancelled. then, 10-11am had break.

11-1pm: OSA. damn bored. rin's comp broke down so she shared with me and we started talking and talking and talking. talked abt our classmates (kinda like gossip a lil), abt bfs, relationships, sch, work and all. yeah..

1pm: went straight home which i was xpecting someone to fetch me but.... yeah. didnt happen so. ALRIGHT! iTS ALRIGHT! =). went to interc with my babes and reached home ard 1+ nearly to two. den i slept til 3+. sch wasnt so tiring but im not sure of why im so tired. and things hasnt been going smooth lately. well, wtf ah right. tot of going work but im so tired la. so lethargic.

anw, my fren's mum just passing the way. so sad right. im feeling sad too. ni lah lumrah hidup. hope everythings gonna be fine for my fren.

aini asked me this stupid qn
"so how do you find the guys in our sch? hot tak?"
eeeeeerrrrrrrrr.
sorry guys but u all are not too hot for my standard. HA.HA.
saw quite alot of ppl today.
saw fadz at cafe and he talked to me abt kicking bikes (LOL)
saw wan at the lift and he was looking so tired.
i didnt expect eh quite a num of people i noe is in the same sch as me.
EVEN THE LONG LOST FRENS!
like qua, fath. a super WOW. reunion or what!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

pls god forgive for what he did cause i know any man would have done just the same.


today = total laziness and moodless for school.



what happened ystd was a total scare for me. shall not elaborate but yeah, i feel like its the world against me. when i wanted to mit shefah and aini at interc just now, i was kinda awkward taking the bus to interc cause it feels like as tho people are saying "eh nie pmpan yg smlm kene tarik smue ngn laki smlm kt TM". u noe, am i paranoid or what? today's lesson is so boring. i didnt have the mood to go sch. wanted to skip sch but yeah, aini motivated me. aini is the biggest bitch in my class. HEHHZzz. sorry babe.



1st lesson: PE. the teacher is so cool. she's miss emily. pretty. and yeah, next week, my PE lesson will be in the swimming pool with other 3 classes. sial lah.. malu or what. for those who dunoe howta swim, gotta go to 10 COMPULSORY SWIMMING LESSON. crazy eh. i nye hair tkle kene chlorine seh.. ughh.



9-10am had talk at auditorium.



10+++ - 11.45am: Office Software Application (OSA) class. and it was draggy. seriously. altho the teacher, mdm sapiah, was fun. but tha thought of what happened ystd stil ran thru my mind and im distracted by it..



11.45am: me and aini ran down quickly that joanne thought we are running towards the cafe to "chop" tempat. LOL. no la pls eh not so kiasu. my shoe the velcro (however it is) terbukak so gotta go Co-OP and buy super glue. den me and aini ate chicken chop pasta. sedap.



1pm: lifeskills lesson (LLA). BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!! 2.5hrs of the lesson. its not that boring ah. but the projector spoilt and we cant watch videos so that makes it boring. i slept in class. and aini woke me up and aini said i was like high on drugs. cause i kinda talk nonsense and yeah,. i made a sound when i was sleeping! LOL. i realised tt and aini too. haha!!! mampos.


3.30pm: end of sch and went home straight.

today is a forced-to-go-sch situation. nisa told me this.

nisa: radhyah, nak tanye sikit ah.
me: what?
nisa: ur muke mcm rozalina (the singapore actress, jai's wife)
me: huh, NO!
nisa: sedare jauh ke? jauh jauh ke??
me: no. tk kenal pon se.
nisa: tapi ur face mcm dier. dulu when ur mom pregnant dier ader suke si roza ke, smpai nak anak die muke cam gitu? ok aku merepek.
me, nisa, reen, aini: laugh

me look like roza? omg. nisa isnt the only one yg ckp my face cam roza. my nenek and aini also say. omg. im so not pretty, then. roza lawa mmg lawa tpi tgk muke dier meluat. so, muke aku nie meluat eh dipandang? LOL. wdv.

i wont be logging in frenster and will only be blogging so, YEAH! got scolding from dad and mum. nak tau ape my dad cakap?

dad: MCM MANE NIE, NAK ADER BOIPREN TAPI NAK ADER LAKI LAIN? ADER LA MARUAH SIKIT KAU TU PEREMPUAN. U CHOSE LA YAN. MAKE A CHOICE. KAU FIKIR LELAKI TKDE PRASAAN EH?

mum: KAU JGN MAIN2 API. NANTI LELAKI BUAT PERUT KAU BONCIT BARU TAU. SELISIH. ESH. LELAKI NIE SUKE BALAS DENDAM.

i was like, ah, ah, ah.. hahahaha!!! ye kan aje lah!





The very thought of you, leaving my life
Broke me down in tears
I took for granted all the love that you gave to me
I know that's what I feared

Don't go away
Every heart beat
Every moment
Everything I see is you

Please forgive me
I'm so sorry
don't say we're through

boy I need you, to be by my side
boy I need you, to open up my eyes
Cause without you, where would I be
Yes I need you
Come back to me

A kiss is not a kiss
Without your lips kissing mine
You bring me paradise
I can't live if you took your love
Away from me
Without you I would die

Every second
Every minute
Every time I close my eyes
I could feel you
So I want you
To stay in my life

Saturday, April 19, 2008


popeyes?? siak ah. KFC BETTER LA!
i love my hair.
today, i spent the whole saturday at the office doing my work. impressive ay. haha. siti was there too. well, nuthing much to blog abt today. just that, I SPENT THE WHOLE SAT AT THE OFFICE. i stil cnt get over it. i spent my saturday in the office. haha!! rajin siak. tmr im going out taking passport foto and might be watching "the hottie and the nottie". hopefully. juggling work and sch sucks ay.ok lah. till here people.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Sebelum ku kenali mu hidupku cukup ngan suka duka
Tak penah ku sangka semuanya akan berubah
Dikau bagaikan cahaya bagi jiwaku ini
Tak mungkin ku lupakan kata mu kan sentiasa disisi
Bagaikan satu kisah cinta kita berdua kemana asyik berpegangan tangan

Orang lain dilupakan
Apa terjadi diriku ni masih tertekan
hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan
Tiap kali ku fikir tiada guna bersedih
Rakan-rakan katakan buang masa ku cintai
Dikau punca pedihku tiada baik darimu tiada langsung yang benar dlm ungkapan bibirmu

Kenapa harusku bercinta
Kenapa ku begini
Kenapa harus ku tahu semua
Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa aku diperbodohkan kasih…

Tak mungkin ku lupa
Kali pertama bersua tak sangka
dikau kan menjadi pedih yang di kan
dalami jiwa..oww
Siang malam termenung sedih memakan hati
Tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh dilukai begini
Namun ku cekal hatiku tuk melupakan mu ku tahu bukan begitu,Come on!
malas ku nak rayu,
buang tenagaku,
kau takkan mendengarku [sudahlah]
Selamat tinggal oh kasih
Janganlah iri hati
hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya mentari

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku dikecewakan..kasihh…oohhhhhh

Kenapa harus ku bercinta
Kenapa ku percaya
Kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
Kenapa harus ku merayu
Kenapa ku bercinta
Kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

Sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini dihati
Baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
Dikau punca segala kepedihan di hatiku
Tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajah mu di hadapan

Sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini dihati
Baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
Dikau punca segala kepedihan di hatiku
Tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajah mu di hadapan ku

Sayang…telah kau mempermainkan hatiku
Telah ku buatkan segalanya..telah ku janjikan segalanya
Namun kau..telah memperdayakan ku
Takkan ku merayu sayang…tak ingin aku membuat mcm ini lagi

I just cant get witchu rite now

Kenapa harus ku merayu
Uh..kenapa harus ku bercinta..
Yeahh…pergilahh sayang…[kenapa]




thnks to diana i finally found this old song back. its KENAPA by SHAZZY FEAT VE. understand me fikri, and everything;'s gonna be alright. ILU <3

Thursday, April 17, 2008



im sorry aini i beat you to this video. and u guys have to check this out. its damn hilarious!

school's preety alright for me. today's school was so lepak. had my sch from 9-10 for my CNR, 10-12 for my OFC and break from 12-1 and OSA from 1-2. but my CNR lesson was cut cut cut til 9.30 ONLY. and had xtra 30 mins. den my OFC was cut cut cut til 10.30. so had my lunch from 10.30 til 1. how great. and then had OSA. ice breaking session. well, im so stresses up abt fikri ay. hes been ACCUSING and i realli mean ACCUSING me of going to geylng pangkeng with my EX, FIRDAUS. we both are innocent party. ok maybe not both, BUT JUST ME. i dont get fikri. people have been saying we wont make it and i really think so i cud change and prove tat theyr wrong but im sorry, i cant. i dun understand him altho weve been together for like what, 2 yrs +! someone told me this.

quantity is not important. quality is the most important in a rship.

means.

QUANTITY (the time being together be it 1 yr or 10 years) is NOT important but the QUALITY (the feeling, the understanding, the love) is MUCH MUCH MUCH more important.

but its hard to let go of him now that we'r almost 3 yrs. so many things ive done for him and vice versa. i miss US. probably it was my fault. but hey, hes such a .. ERGH!

tmr i aint going to sch. lesson boring. in fact no lesson. im so over this.

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Monday, April 14, 2008

honestly 1st day of school WASNT great at all. stupid orientation, talks, and classmates (xcluding aini shefah and siti, of kos) i honestly hate this girl in my class whom used to be my schmate too and shes super nosiy. meluat lah.. and im trying this out for 2 weeks. if not, i'll jst quit and taking private. ITS DECIDED!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

"im bac and kinda tired. my kwn replace me and anw thns for the gift. betul ke u pkai duet u seh, tk berat hati ke kluakan duet smue? me nga download game . tadi i kal tpi u da tdo ke u avoid i. ntah la n sori i think i found my true luv alrd all thnx 2 u! heh js kiddin. kol me when da wake up. muacks."

dats what fikri sent me at my hp when i woke up this mning. YES i swear the presies i bought it with my own money. tkde share2 nye ngn siape2. and what he meant by he found he's true love is, means kan i bought fer him PSP so dats he's true luv la cos hes been wanting a PSP for a long time. and finally he got it. eh sial lah sweet or what sia aku beli kan dier PSP for bdae present! and he was like saying to me this ystd.

fik: asal u kasi i 2 present?
me: pasal u special.

DEN WE SMILE


hehehh. i told him, the body shop perfume jgn kasi sesiape pakai.. cos cnfrm nnti cpt habes seh.. and its expensive pulak tu!!! i spent ard 400 just on fik's bdae. just to make it happen. just to make him feel special. i hope he loves he psp. but sorry babe. cudnt get u the colour u wanted. ERggh. wellllll, TMR SCH! siak. and ive yet to ketat kan my sch skirt. haiya... well......... im going to do it.. soon.. ptg.. so, yeah.. happy 22nd birthday again my love!!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

perhaps mine was the best n Expensive bdae gift he had this yr.
PSP and BODY SHOP'S PERFUME
we dont belong at pizzahut. we belong to swensens.


this walkway is full of monkeys!!! so GELI














happy birthday sweets. hope every moment spent with me was worthwhile and wonderful. which i noe is not. well, misses.






today fikri's soul suddenly so kind to buy me baju from ZARA. ugh. and i bought myself a shampoo for rebonding.